i've gained is this:
that i can't fix everything.
i can only fix myself.
and hopefully by improving myself,
i'll improve the way others view me too.
i need to stop consuming myself in things
that i cannot control.
i need to focus on the positive,
and what i can do that is productive
rather than drown in the overwhelming feeling
of disappointment and depression.
i'm not going to give up.
not this time,
and never again.
i'll prove it to myself.
and i'll prove it to you.
that's a promise.
